it’s over now. i am letting go.
Twenty-five fils’ (1.75 php) burning in my finger tips. I am in euphoria. My mind is wandering in clouds of smoke. I had to make a tough decision… I can’t take it anymore. It is finally over.
It’s been four years or so, but I have to let go of you. another year has ended and I wouldn’t want you to stay in my life. You’ve been with me through dark phases of my existence. I shared with you the joys of my reality. but I can’t take it anymore. Everyday and everynight, all through the time you have given me much pleasure. I can’t start my day without you, I can’t even sleep without you touching my lips.
When I am with you… I am in nirvana, feeling so light and giving me the courage to face my fears and doubts. I am thankful though but I have to set you free… out of my life. It’s like I can’t breathe this past days with you. my heart is in deep pain everytime my hands are grasp with you. I know, in a way you shed light in my darkness and yet I can live better-off now without you.
I will still see you everyday, everywhere I go. In time I will definitely won’t think of you anymore. You made me do a lot of things I never thought I could make. But now, I have faith in myself… I know I can. Thank you.
My head is spinning now… this is the last time I will get hold of you. I couldn’t say I love you… but I was addicted to you. You are now a burden to me. I cast you out. Never again. I am letting go.
Farewell, my Marlboro.
NOTE: This is a re-post from my Friendster blog dated 01 January 2009.